This year has been far from easy. It really tested me. Funny
I should say that because if we were to put all our problems in a bowl, I’m
sure 99% of us would gladly reclaim our problems and hug them tight. That much
is true. As to not down play my own problems or anyone else’s, I’ve had to look
at life as a beautiful, tough journey with chances, choices, opportunities and
battles tailored for everyone individually.
In 365 days, I have
learnt a lot about myself and my capabilities, about my family, about my
friends, situations, circumstances to name a few. I also learnt to stand for something
or fall for anything but also that pleading ignorance and gauging the situation
in silence will save you a lot of time and argument with basic minded people. I’ve
learnt to develop a hard back and that when I find my back up against the
wall the bravest thing to do is gather all my strength and push back.
I journey through life everyday only ever looking up every
now and then to try and smell the roses and making some statements along the
way. Retrospectively, though it’s ideal and convenient it is also acute signs
of a greater problem that is Ostrich Syndrome! ‘Acute Ostrich Syndrome’ is how
I land up in November of 2015 and have no clue where time went. Not only that I
really look up and realise that I cant pin point one thing that is the same as
it was in January or April or July. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with
change of course-That is life.
This year taught me that no matter how dark it is, the sun
will shine if you only let it. It taught me to believe in myself no matter how
hard it is. It taught me to cling to my faith in good times and bad. It taught me
that not everything that’s easy in theory is practical but you can always find
a way around it. It’s taught me that ‘fake it until you make it’ is a very good
way to go about things but faking perfection when you so clearly aren’t even OK may end
up disastrous. It taught me that age is nothing but a number. It taught me that
nobody owes me anything and I too don’t owe anybody anything. It taught me that
without hard work, discipline and perseverance, success is unattainable. It
taught me that life is fragile and no day is guaranteed. It taught me that
things are exactly how they are supposed to be and my past decisions are what made them so in the present. It has taught me that what the
world perceives as normal is not something I need to aspire to be. It taught me to live my mantra;
everything is going to be ok in the end, if it’s not ok, its not the end and of
course I am my best asset.
So with problems, worries, anxiety and stress aside, what
can I say?
Cheers to 2015! May I be a bigger, better
and braver version of myself in 2016!
Remember, that the end of the year is not the end of
everything or the mark of failure because your goals weren’t reached. It only marks
the end of one section of the greater journey and the opportunity to start afresh
perhaps with a new strategy to reach that unique level of undisputed greatness.
