The weekend I could be nothing for you but everything for me...
This social butterfly clipped her social wings and went on a
solo mission. NOBODY was invited. Some might say I lost the plot temporarily. Some might say it was an attention seeking stunt.
Some might say 'Shes just weird'. Some may have said mood
swings... What they may have assumed was
and still is completely irrelevant...
I needed a refuel. I was not going to achieve that by going out on
benders and high fiving and chest bumping, fist pumping and talking to Tom, Dick and Harriet and the other random things I usually get up to on the weekend. The weekend is just under 60 hours and I let my thoughts shape me for all of those hours. Completely unreal. I needed strength and that strength as I keep saying only
comes from within.
It’s funny how a life
refuel works... it’s almost like a petrol tank refuel. Actually its exactly
like a petrol tank refuel. Once your car
is heading towards empty, the red light pops up and you have to put petrol in.
How ever much you put in, will determine how far you go. Somehow, that's
exactly how the human is designed too. If you are not going to refuel yourself,
you are not going to go very far.
I knew
that I needed time. It was petrifying at first because I never need a
weekend to myself. i like hanging out, talking, learning, exploring and experiencing but a
hearty cheers to this situation because it was so edifying! And successfully, I learnt new things about myself. It was great to just be by myself
and do everything for me! I didn’t have to double check if everyone else was okay with it, if someone else was coming, I just had to make sure I was okay and happy and how often in life do we
get those moments?
By blocking out the outside world, I had so many epiphanies...
Sharing is good. Indeed it is good. Sharing is very good. Sharing
my time, my advice, my belongings, my kindness, myself-All very good. I am of the opinion that I can always do more
of sharing but this weekend I realised that if I do not take 5 minutes away for
myself, I will have nothing to share. Everybody
needs space and it should definitely be a non-negotiable kind of affair. As
much as we should be selfless we need to be selfish. Why? Because you are your first
responsibility. If you have not taken care of you, you have no business taking care
of me.
I also had to remind myself
that, it's important not to forget where you came from and remember where you
promised yourself you were headed. Also remembering obstacles are very much
part of the journey. The minute you turn your head slightly, that's when it could
get extremely blurry.
To end my weekend, I
found something fascinating on Facebook it read “Tell me about your life in 6
words”. I'm a firm believer of everything is exactly how it should be. On reading those words, I realised almost immediately
that, this was the final piece to completing my castle of thoughts. The first words that
still came to mind amidst the turmoil were “I was born to
be great!” upon counting- 6 words on the dot.
I'm no genius and by no stretch of the
imagination a fortune teller but I figured as long as I'm armed with that attitude, no matter how wobbly it gets, I will be pull through and things are going to be just fine!
